What the hell out!!!

Where on earth would a girl allowed/could stand her boyfriend to state tat he is engaged with somebody else??@@
Althought tats just a joke within friends......><
And now summore JOKES coming out from his friend saying he should be married with who who who n engaged with who who who n who who who luvs him........bla bla bla......
So what??!! its just a silly joke n damn it coz i CARE!!!><
I should be polite n just treat it as a joke><.......
.......

erhhhhh.......
Y is there sum ppl who can just did nth n acting like dunno nth....
n just sit there waiting for marks given?
Gek sei me edi><
The project should be done by everyone n it doesnt change just becoz ur history sucks><
Mine r sucks but at least i did sumthing......
Wat makes u think a word of "Dunno how to do" can let u run away from ur resposibility?
Dunno? then learn lar><
Do u know wat means initiative? or active??
Dun u dare to act like u know nth n just waiting others ppl to do for u><......
BLEH!~!!
What the hell is going on>
ERHHHHHH...........><

Home work==

lots of homework to do neh~~~
all r driving me crazy>.<
The pengajian thing is the hardest==
coz my sejarah = GAGAL.......
haiz......

He is still in Atlanta there.......lol~ y he din bring his laptop leh?
dint see him online for few days liao><
so miss u neh~~
He will be back at tomoro~
hope can see him lar~♥
no power edi lor~~
faster come back n charge me lar~~T^T

Gambateh lor~
the 1st present must be well done~~><
cannot fail da~~
Hope can astonished everyone~@@.
wkkk~~~

Have a Nice Day lor~^^

Have a nice day~^^

Today is great~~^^
Our masterpiece being post on the corridor~ Its so gud to see our hardwork being paid~~
wkkkk~~^^
Finally our efforts are worth~^^

Hope this can keep it on~~

Hubby r going to Atlanta soon....dunno whether can contact or not....haiz....
So miss u neh~~
Hope can share my hapiness with u nor~
Luv u♥

Fine day~^^

Today is his exam day~ Wish him luck~^^

Suddenly realise tat everyone also will face the same problem like mine~
such as ah liang~ he argue with his girlfriend today~
when i heard it~ feel like," wow~ so familiar~@@" "
realise tat not only me got this kind of expierience~^^

I really appreciate me n my bf relationship~
although he is so far away from me~
but hope tat we could last to the end~^^
Be Happy nor~☺☻

Today is my homeworkday~^^
i hope i can finish the design 1~wkkkk~
Nex weekend there will be a job from me~ lol~
I think i am quite blur in the time i accept the job== coz i accept it><
haiz~ just cant resist ppl request~
but as long as i can do it~ i will do lor~^^

Hope evryone got a splendid day lor~^^

Dear♥
Wish u all the best ar~~^^

Fight....

Today we almost hav a fight......
i am so sry to upset u.....i doesnt meant it......><
sorry my dear......

when the time i saw ur call, it really shocked me ==
but made me feel very happy~ coz u call!

sry to be tat unreasonable n busybody.........
i just wanted to share my feelings...... but dint think of wat u might think........

haiz.......y u like to say sienz at the end of everything?
y? does my word really made u sienz?
actually every time u say seinz, i will feel like my heart is so pain......

can u tell me wat u wan? or not i will just keep guessing n giving wrong expression or reply.......
everytime u say u r tired, u fail or u cant made it in ur exam, i really feel sad for u......
but i thought i should encourage u n support u....
so wat i can think to say is "add oil" "+u" "gambateh".......
i know it is useless......
but i really can help nth......i feel very useless n lossing my way.......
i thought i might give u happiness but it ends up with anger......
i really do pay my effort in it.......but wat i always get is just "plss dun say those things again, very sienz.....lazy to hear"
i dunno wat i did wrong......

the oni thing i thought of is........when i face the same think, i would luv to hear u say"take care, i will be there, dun give up, gambateh.....etc...."
all this really support me.......but y it doesnt work on u? i really dun understand.......
everytime when i face problem, i really wanted to hear some advise or even a little of comfort from u, n i will be happy after all for the whole day.......but y? y it doesnt work on u?
sometimes i will think tat izzit becoz u doesnt nid all this thing? or wat u doesnt nid.....is me?

Bad Mood....

Y am i tat easily effected by u......

I dun wan to be like this, coz u would not wan me to be this sensitive or else it will cause u stressed......

I dunwan u to be stressed, coz u have enough from them........ i wan to be the one who can give u share...... hte one who is different from others......

not oni talk to u...but can share ur feelings...... n give u happyness when u can see me n talking to me......

But now, i really doubt........can i be the one?

I feel like everytime when u talk to me.......u doesnt really TALK, but just state....... U doesnt really shows ur feelings.......

Like when i am sad, i will find u n tell u wat happen, hoping to get comfort from u n i would just feel better.....n when i am happy, i am there to share my happiness with u n just hope tat u might happy n glad for me......

Do u feel the same too? if not.......then wat is the diferent of me n others?

Mood really effects our appetite......not feeling hungry anymore......no wonder i lose weight recently......

I really miss u.....but can i still stay strong waiting on u? coz problems do happens everytime.......

Tat i dunwan to give u stress, then made me hide a bit of my emotions, n sumtimes u would feel it also.........then finally......argue argue n argueing........

This is really NOT wat i wan......

I just nid a little bit care..... losing u really make me lose my way.......

Anything i can do is know u from wat u tell..........but u tell nth......

I feel like i am losing u u know?

New Live, New Start....

There r too many things to follow on....
1st of all, I wan to gain weight.... n take care my self properly....
Stop thinking too much n just follow the way it should be....
Let go of everything, Things will be better....

Miss u♥
God bless me♥