Bye bye again............

Many things happen lately@@
My birthday past~ thx guys~^^
especially ric lar~^^
san fu sai~^^
thx for wat u did ar~^^haha~~

Then its abt my poor headT..T
injured accidentallyT..T
pain><
thx to ah sin here~^^
thx for being there for all the way long~^^
thx to ric, sheng and jing also~^^ thx for concern~^^

And its the time to say bye bye again............
I really hate this time............
Everytime also nid to suffer in this bad mood.........
mood of being seperate with u guys..........

I will never regret to meet u guys~
to know every of u~
but though, i will indeed blame this world......
blame it about why izzit everytime when we get along together very well,
and need to be seperated away...........

This world is cruel,
you will never know that who will always remember you...........
so will i be the one? be the one u guys will never forget..........

Thx for everyone tat taught me a lot................ah xin, ah wei, jing, datong, hann, sheng, ric, liang, jian woei, jj and a lot a lot a lot of u guys!!!!>< i will never forgot u all lor~~~~NEVER~~

So stay in contact lor><
will miss u guys very much~~especially the little ah xin ar~~haha~~
remember to find me~~XD

Muacks~~~!!!! luv u all!!!!><
CD09053!!!! LUV IT!!!!

*miss my dear so much T..T
although you was not here when i met problems...........
but i know u will always put it in heart........
although you always says that girl in USA are always beauty~ and every day say they r way too better than me~~
but i know~^^ thats not wat u really think~^^
haha~~^^
muacks~~luv u always o~~~^^

胆大的我？@@

ish@@......本来应该在赶功课的我竟然在偷懒==……
好久没写了~哈哈~~突然心血来潮^^

明天有个烧烤会~中学同学举办的~XD
因为他们终于毕业了~要来个"最后一餐"~
然后星期四==又要和她们去4天毕业旅==
所以现在要把未来四天要教的功课一次过赶完==
我也真的是太冒险了==
很多final project== 都还没有作多过50%==

他们都说我很大胆==敢这么方认自己去参加这么多活动==
我也这么觉得==
不懂为什么就是有这种把功课抛下，出去玩的勇气……==
可能是因为觉得和中学朋友相聚比功课重要了那么1%吧~
毕竟他们毕业后，要找到他们，就不像以前那么容易了……
这一年里，当想念他们的时候，回去中学就能找到仍在读高三的他们~
现在他们毕业了~真的要各飞东西了咯~
要怎么找到他们叙旧呢？
所以还是把握机会和她们多相聚咯~
但是贪玩是要付出代价的==
今晚不用睡了咯~哈哈~

欣欣说我懒了==
好像有哦~但我觉得不是懒~是被其他东西分心了吧~
哈哈~我很容易分心的~XD
不过现在又在勤劳了拉~哈哈~

最近我们的圈子发生了好多东西呐~
很累很烦==都不想去理了~
感觉又回到去幼稚的中学一样~一大堆问题的~
唉~懒得去管咯~功课都来不及做了呢~
好啦~要去拼命了~哇咔咔咔咔咔~~
大家晚安咯~^^

好想你噢~~msn 不能时常上线==
都找不到你了><
唉~~千万别忘了我就好了~~~X3
take care hun~^^
luv u~~>3<

lately~

phew~~ depressed depressed n depressed...........==
my paper sculpture haven start any of it n i m still here writing my blog== ish~~
i also dunno y~ just sudden feel like writing blog~~^^haha~

there is sum thing in our gang~~ sumthing tat i wouldnt know@@
sumone said if i use my heart to see, i will definitely find out.....
sumone said if i can go n observe things n expression within everyone, i can definitely find out.........
the conclusion is...........i find out nth==

its not really nth.......i wouldnt admit my observation r low...........but yet.....i can oni observe wat u guys show.........but for the things deep deep deep inside u guys..........i can feel nth==...........
maybe i know sumthing, but i really dunno izzit the thing u guys talking abt??@@
u guys think tat i m not the one who can keep secret, not becoz i dunwan to keep, is just tat i m too straight tat sumtimes i will excidentally spread out the secret........
lol..........

i dunno wats going on..........as long as it wouldnt effect me lor~ they say the truth will reveal soon~~ so i m waiting here~~
waiting for the truth~ waiting to see whether it is the one i thought..........

sumtimes i found sumthing, i wouldnt speak out, n also wouldnt ask anyone...........coz i can feel tat once i talk abt tat thing, everything's gonna change.........
so abt everything i tell u guys, means tat those r not very important things to me........
if its really effects me, i wouldnt tell, even a word.........
so izzit this the reason tat u guys think tat i wouldnt keep a secret? just becoz u guys dunno i have one??@@
blur blur.................==.......................
ish~~ dun think abt this jor lor~~ just waiting for the truth ba~~haha~~
dun let me wait too long~~really curious wats happen behind lerh><

ish>< my dear sick edi.............T..T poor little thing~~~
heart pain lerh><
take care in US ar~~ althought i m not there for u.........
but plss do be strong><
i m right here waiting for u><
muacks~~~>3<

Sharing session~^^

lol~~ 1st talk abt the place we had gone to~^^
we went to full house, ikea, low yat, pavilion, n today we went klcc~~^^
ish~~spend lot n also being inspired alot~^^
if u ask me worth or not? the ans definitely is yes~~
its fun~~^^ but now nid to save a bit jor~~lol~~
cant continue using money like this liao@@~~bankrup jor lor!

this few days, my dad n mum started to scold me abt wat i did~
they say i m way too over tat always back home late n always went to friends house till late nite......
nonsence!!!><
i used to be like tat de lor><
b4 they say kl is too far from home so cannot......
but now i m in sunway lerh><
just near by my house!! duh!!!
parents always forget wat they promis n said>just becoz b4 they dun know........
then now when they know then oni come and boder this n tat........
hate it! erhhhhhh!!

saw sumthing interesting in tutor jen ting blog~~
here to share with u all lor~ coz i think is absolutely right!!

wat i nid to learn :

“别人教你赚钱，先看看他是不是已经成功的人”
“不要随便批评看低一个人，你不知道他以后也许会是个明日之星，可是因为你今天的一句话，他转行去卖炒果条了。　你害了他”

n wat i wan to tell u guys~~:

“画画先学基本的stroke,好像你走路要穿鞋一样”
“the one教你画的是入门，我们给你这样武器，你以后会用到的”

peace~~ =v=

“鼓励对每一个人就像燃料对于引擎那么重要”
“伸出你的手去援助别人，而不是伸出你的脚去绊倒他们。”

ish~~ lesser time to talk with dear liao><
he is very busy n me too><
so miss u nerh><
if oni u r here~
haha~~
luv u~~^^

New sem started

phew~ a month later edi~~haha~ so long time din update here ler~
our sem break ends in a flash.....
when we start our sem break, we miss our schooling days;
when we ends our sem break, now we miss it again......
weird me~~weird us~~haha~

lots of things happens within this sem break~
datong n hann go back their hometown so tat they cant really join us too much~
keep hanging out with pui wei eric sikkina them~~^^
then also hanging out with secondary old friends~~

summore go skating~~haha~~^^wearing PEACE~
jing so funny~ he is like crab walking~XD
sikkina n eric n sheng n solame also cheating geh~ all skate b4 de~XD
peng n we ting learn so hard~haha~
ah wei n me keep skating fast fast~XD

the whole sem break are full of activities~~^^
tats me~ never stop~haha~
then the debt is never touched my home assignment n now prepare to die==......(tomoro is the pass up day, still haven start anything yet.....maybe tomoro morning ba......lazy me.....)

our class went to sunway lagoon also~~^^ fun~XD
class 4 also r there~~^^lol tired~~
then go steamboat seperately~coz too tired edi~dunwan go too far lerh~~
but yet still satisfied~~XD
although i have a big muscle pain after tat~haha~

the day b4 the school starts~ we went to eric house to give him a great surprise as his belated birthday present~^^
then we also visit wei n jing house~^^
haha~~we also go jaya jusco n have a walk~
keep laughing for the whole day~~fun~~
we play till really exhausted~ coz its the last day of our holiday~~^^

then now the school starts~
ish~~sudden realize tat i did nth for my holiday~~haha~bastard me~
i din clean up my room n clean up all the 1st sem assignment==......lol..........

jus now hav a chat with hann datong chris n simon~
ish~ i m stil not growing........upset.......
i thought i hav learnt sumthing but actually not.........
y m i always standing in the same place?
the samething keep happening around me........
once i thought i edi get rid of it~ then it comes over n over again==
everytime when i think i m success,
but then the facts tell u that its just a fake........
ish== then everytime when this thing keep recyclying.....==
i will just keep running away from it==
pretending its over edi......
haiz.......god........
when can i really really get rid of this kind of things?

i thought collegde is diff.........
at least at first, i really think that here r way too diff n better from my secondary school~
at least no nid to boder abt friends things coz we r all adult n we know wat we r doing.......
we wouldnt like wat i used to hav in collegde like childish thingy.........
but then y izzit changing?? such as datong says.........
erhhhhhhhh...............hate it..........
when can all this stupid thing stop bodering me........
they said no nid to care so much for those little problem.......
if oni i can do it........
theres records in my heart for everything u did...........no matter how u change......the records will always be there.........
so now who can help me to distroy all those records?
or who can teach me how to live without caring so much?
izzit bcoz i m a girl so tat i just couldnt see things in the way tat the boys did??
sudden feel like i m so ang geng==(hard neck~haha)
ish.....hope evrything will be better after a gud sleep...........nitez.....

dear moved away from his so call guardian's house edi~~^^
finally no nid being scold by them~^^
♥so miss u......><
u definitely will scold me if u know wat happens to me........==
haha~ i still couldnt learn wat u tell~~

hope things can be better la~~

Fake

This world are so fake that full of freaking fake ppl......

Stresssssssssssssss is wat i can all say......
this few days are so stress n tired.....but i did nth actually><
doesnt feel to keep moving on with my assignment......
pop up must die liao de......
sumore got booklet nid to rush......
><
no reference liao lar>< draw so many for wat?! die oni......
lol~ this sem is too long liao~~~
i already reach the time which is so lame n without passion anymore.......
so sienz edi.....sommore no motive.......
who can charge me >>>>>> .'.
low battery liao lar.......everyday just sleep n internet.......didnt do homework for ages liao~~
help me............
SOS!!!

again miss u♥

Moody moody moody moody..........

Today is a moody day.....it used to be gud as ussual......
but when figure class come......it started to change.......
why is everyone improving but i am not??
so useless.......
today is the 1st time tat my art work doesnt post on the board(?).......
people may think tat, aiyo, nvm de lar, just one time oni ma..........
but for me, its actually a heart attack........
n last week tat manequin i also score B- > B........
B-!!!!how does this happens??!
i thought tat my result can all in the average of B+ > B......but now got a B-.........

my creativity is low.......n the oni skill tat i am quite proud of is sketching figure............
but now i really doubt.......wat am i really gud at?
no creative, no skills anymore........
its oni a normal ppl after all....
some may think that B- is already very gud.......but u will never know the feeling when you drop from high to low........
the highest mark u get b4.......the deepest u will drop when u score a low marks...........
it really hurts.......feeling so sad n wan to cry edi...........
useless me.........
somemore now got lots of final project r waiting for us to done........
die lor........
really dun hav heart n strenght to do anything.........
no motive at all.........

couldnt contact my dear.......coz he is quite busy now in finding collegde........
in a vacation trip also.......
no way to spread my feelings..........>.<
erhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!just wan to cry all out!!!but cant><
ish...........useless me.........
the pop up prototype sucks.............

so embarass to drop ur face, dad.........so shame.........

so miss u ar................♥

......few minutes oni.....

Few minutes can change the world......
Few minutes can change my feelings.......
sob sob......
is everything like this??
dun like it lor......
y sudden like argueing de......
Just now still very happy de.....then he on9 edi......of course i more happy de lar~
but y har.......y suddenly argue de......

i just like to share everything......y u dun like to listen?
like i am forcing u to listen.......
i thought u might be quite interesting to what happen to me like wat i feel too......
but y leh?
wats wrong??
or m i too stick on to u???
just wan to share things happen in me to u......then turn out like forcing u to listen things happen to me.......
then u r like no concern n not supportive at all......
sob sob.......

m i too bodering u?
nitez lor................

Time Square♥

Today i go to do hair steaming with my mum~XD

now my hair r not that dry edi~~^^

Then go to time square with the LOMO gang~==

Chee han, datong n tik sheng lar~

They r damn funny~>w<

Keep helping ppl promote products==

made me buy things tat i dun really nid==......

lol~ but its nice indeed~^^

Get lots of inspire from tat flea market~(its actually not flea market== but i called it flea market~=p)

Then we go to sweet chat to hav our dinner~(its actually my lunch==......)

The food is okok oni~ Secret recipe de Mac & cheese r better~~>w<

Photo of 4 of us~ lol~ so ugly me==......

Today is US indepentdent day~~^^

Yesterday dear went to count down~^^

hope he is having fun lor~^^muahahaha~~

nitez everyone~♥♥

Gud day Gud nitez~^^

So happy~^^
today no go out~ no go anyplace~ just stay at home~ peace~(>3<)v
Got a video talk with hun this morning (actually is noon== sleep till 1pm oni wake up~wkkk)muahahaha~ fully charged~^^

Then i finish my design 1 in a shortly day~^^
so satisfide~^^
still got finish art mock-up n figure drawing (4 head) left lor~
actually plan to sketch 6~10ppl de~
nid to train my own skill edi~
dad say practice more oni can sharpen my skill~
if not i wun learn anything==
like wat they say lor~ dun hav any improvement if keeping on like this~
so in order to improve~ practice is the best way~^^ muahahaha~
figure drawing is really fun`^^ like it~^^

Noa go take a fully sleep~^^ then tomoro will be another homework day lor~^^
nitez everyone~^^
♥gud nitez dear♥

Exhausted==

lol~ Last minute r really bad==........sleep at 630am yesterday==(actually is day b4 yesterday, coz now is midnight edi =3=)
so tired today><......
go makan steamboat with family==........doesnt feel gud......
maybe the food r not bad, but eating with them r so tiring==.......
friends r better >.< can eat happily~^^
dint eat much lor~

Actually i should be sleeping now==......
but so miss him neh~ he din online today......=3=
dunno y......is there sumthing happens?
coz he says he had an arguement with his guardian in the time i went out to class.....
ask him wat happen he also dunwan tell.....== now make me very worry abt him==.......
scare if theres anything happen......

The design homework is going tougher n tougher==........
my creativity r so low >.< die lor......
my skill r the oni things i am proud of.......but i cannot too ego edi.......==
if not i will die hard lor==

The follower r so scary ar.......i so scare><
although i think he stop edi.......but still scare......
y this world full of these kind of weird ppl de ><
i so gang ar.......

What the hell out!!!

Where on earth would a girl allowed/could stand her boyfriend to state tat he is engaged with somebody else??@@
Althought tats just a joke within friends......><
And now summore JOKES coming out from his friend saying he should be married with who who who n engaged with who who who n who who who luvs him........bla bla bla......
So what??!! its just a silly joke n damn it coz i CARE!!!><
I should be polite n just treat it as a joke><.......
.......

erhhhhh.......
Y is there sum ppl who can just did nth n acting like dunno nth....
n just sit there waiting for marks given?
Gek sei me edi><
The project should be done by everyone n it doesnt change just becoz ur history sucks><
Mine r sucks but at least i did sumthing......
Wat makes u think a word of "Dunno how to do" can let u run away from ur resposibility?
Dunno? then learn lar><
Do u know wat means initiative? or active??
Dun u dare to act like u know nth n just waiting others ppl to do for u><......
BLEH!~!!
What the hell is going on>
ERHHHHHH...........><

Home work==

lots of homework to do neh~~~
all r driving me crazy>.<
The pengajian thing is the hardest==
coz my sejarah = GAGAL.......
haiz......

He is still in Atlanta there.......lol~ y he din bring his laptop leh?
dint see him online for few days liao><
so miss u neh~~
He will be back at tomoro~
hope can see him lar~♥
no power edi lor~~
faster come back n charge me lar~~T^T

Gambateh lor~
the 1st present must be well done~~><
cannot fail da~~
Hope can astonished everyone~@@.
wkkk~~~

Have a Nice Day lor~^^

Have a nice day~^^

Today is great~~^^
Our masterpiece being post on the corridor~ Its so gud to see our hardwork being paid~~
wkkkk~~^^
Finally our efforts are worth~^^

Hope this can keep it on~~

Hubby r going to Atlanta soon....dunno whether can contact or not....haiz....
So miss u neh~~
Hope can share my hapiness with u nor~
Luv u♥

Fine day~^^

Today is his exam day~ Wish him luck~^^

Suddenly realise tat everyone also will face the same problem like mine~
such as ah liang~ he argue with his girlfriend today~
when i heard it~ feel like," wow~ so familiar~@@" "
realise tat not only me got this kind of expierience~^^

I really appreciate me n my bf relationship~
although he is so far away from me~
but hope tat we could last to the end~^^
Be Happy nor~☺☻

Today is my homeworkday~^^
i hope i can finish the design 1~wkkkk~
Nex weekend there will be a job from me~ lol~
I think i am quite blur in the time i accept the job== coz i accept it><
haiz~ just cant resist ppl request~
but as long as i can do it~ i will do lor~^^

Hope evryone got a splendid day lor~^^

Dear♥
Wish u all the best ar~~^^

Fight....

Today we almost hav a fight......
i am so sry to upset u.....i doesnt meant it......><
sorry my dear......

when the time i saw ur call, it really shocked me ==
but made me feel very happy~ coz u call!

sry to be tat unreasonable n busybody.........
i just wanted to share my feelings...... but dint think of wat u might think........

haiz.......y u like to say sienz at the end of everything?
y? does my word really made u sienz?
actually every time u say seinz, i will feel like my heart is so pain......

can u tell me wat u wan? or not i will just keep guessing n giving wrong expression or reply.......
everytime u say u r tired, u fail or u cant made it in ur exam, i really feel sad for u......
but i thought i should encourage u n support u....
so wat i can think to say is "add oil" "+u" "gambateh".......
i know it is useless......
but i really can help nth......i feel very useless n lossing my way.......
i thought i might give u happiness but it ends up with anger......
i really do pay my effort in it.......but wat i always get is just "plss dun say those things again, very sienz.....lazy to hear"
i dunno wat i did wrong......

the oni thing i thought of is........when i face the same think, i would luv to hear u say"take care, i will be there, dun give up, gambateh.....etc...."
all this really support me.......but y it doesnt work on u? i really dun understand.......
everytime when i face problem, i really wanted to hear some advise or even a little of comfort from u, n i will be happy after all for the whole day.......but y? y it doesnt work on u?
sometimes i will think tat izzit becoz u doesnt nid all this thing? or wat u doesnt nid.....is me?

Bad Mood....

Y am i tat easily effected by u......

I dun wan to be like this, coz u would not wan me to be this sensitive or else it will cause u stressed......

I dunwan u to be stressed, coz u have enough from them........ i wan to be the one who can give u share...... hte one who is different from others......

not oni talk to u...but can share ur feelings...... n give u happyness when u can see me n talking to me......

But now, i really doubt........can i be the one?

I feel like everytime when u talk to me.......u doesnt really TALK, but just state....... U doesnt really shows ur feelings.......

Like when i am sad, i will find u n tell u wat happen, hoping to get comfort from u n i would just feel better.....n when i am happy, i am there to share my happiness with u n just hope tat u might happy n glad for me......

Do u feel the same too? if not.......then wat is the diferent of me n others?

Mood really effects our appetite......not feeling hungry anymore......no wonder i lose weight recently......

I really miss u.....but can i still stay strong waiting on u? coz problems do happens everytime.......

Tat i dunwan to give u stress, then made me hide a bit of my emotions, n sumtimes u would feel it also.........then finally......argue argue n argueing........

This is really NOT wat i wan......

I just nid a little bit care..... losing u really make me lose my way.......

Anything i can do is know u from wat u tell..........but u tell nth......

I feel like i am losing u u know?

New Live, New Start....

There r too many things to follow on....
1st of all, I wan to gain weight.... n take care my self properly....
Stop thinking too much n just follow the way it should be....
Let go of everything, Things will be better....

Miss u♥
God bless me♥