Update!

Gees!! There's been a long time that i never update here~
Everything are fine, although it's a bit drop off from classes~ =P
And the worst for the month is that i lost my new phone *again* in 2 weeks time, then now change back to a cheaper phone..... ops.......

So here it is!
Days are getting better with my baby around~ :D
It just gives me a feeling of, this is my life, and that's it! It's happy, stress less, everyday what i am thinking of is what to do next, or what to eat next............ hrmmm, very lazy huh?
But........... it is also aimless.
I can never strike to the best i can do in my studies, although it's still maintained on the level (am i?), but i can never get over it.
For more or less, i am hard to concentrate on my studies because my life are too wonderful with my bape around. Which makes me fell in deeply that i will never wanna get up.
It's too nice that i forget all about my studies, haha!
Every single time being with him and his family makes me forgot about all the worries.
I know it is wrong, i should balance up my time between studies and him........ blah blah blah...........
and yeah, i tell my self, it is only for this semester.
And it is the last time for me to be like this.
For the end of this semester, he will left and off to US for his studies again.
And the powerful hardworking me will be back!! bwahahaha!! "I swear to my self!

Sometimes i will think, figuring what makes me keep hiding away from studies, classes or what ever related..........
and yeah. i think i am not happy with it........ i can't enjoy the time in classes, even if i am so concentrate on my work, i am not enjoy, at all........
I used to be so happy every time i went to classes, that i will never miss every single class.
But now, i just wish that the lecturer are sick that i can never need to go class.
Why is this happening? i always ask my self........
Life without happiness is meaningless, that's why, i couldn't find any of passion in classes now.

It's lack of something, and i know what it is.
But i know, i can never get it back.......
I thought i had let it go, but i found that i just couldn't.........
It's a seed in my heart now, a seed that reminds me how silly am i putting so much effort and heart in it.
I will never regret for what i have done, but if only there's another chance, i hope that this never happen, that i never met u guys from the beginning.
At least it won't hurt that much when you lose everything you had.
It's really pathetic......... i am so sick of my self being like this.
If only there's something to wash away all my memories, which reminds me all the time about how silly am i.

I want the old me back!
The one that can smile all the time no matter what,
the one that doesn't cares for what  people think of,
the ONE, that is always full of passion on everything........
Not this one which always hide away from evil and seek for warmth from my love one.
How can i grow strong and tough enough?
I am just scared that if there's one day i will be drown deeply in my own loneliness.........
That's just freaking bad.......

Ahaha, never thought of i will speak this much for today though.
Everything will be fine!! Yeah!!!
Gudnite everyone, have a nice day though.....